Since Song Lyrics Seem To Say It All

....let's carry on with them, shall we babies?

"If I'm not blind
Why can't I see
That a circle can't fit
Where a square should be"

And that about sums it up.

There's been so much to be excited about since my last post, which, yes I know, was a long time ago, and so much sadness and uncertainty too. Sorry babies. Trying to heal, trying to find my place, feeling like I'm on the outside, looking in.

And alone. Very very alone. Not in a feel sorry for myself kind of way, it's different than that. Being betrayed, losing the trust in TCB shook me to my core. It's getting better, but I still have my days when I need to vent and be angry and allow myself to hurt, all in order to heal. It's hard enough for me to reach out, so to be dismissed.....makes me wonder why some topics are years old, yet still discussed, yet something relatively fresh is met with sighs of "enough already..."

Perhaps it is. Enough. Maybe I should write a book "How to Get Over It In 16 Weeks Or Less". Instant best seller. Move over all you tv "doctors"--HRG is moving in.

So....onto other things.

So much has happened since my last post, some good, some not so good, but life's like that. Our vacation back to the place I hate to be was better than last year by a long shot. There was much laughter and euchre and music and friendship and love and lobster--all good for the soul. As always, we are forever in debt to our friends for opening their home to us.

TCB's Mom was so happy to see him. We'd been led to believe she was basically a drooling idiot now. So far from the truth! She has her good days and bad days, but is still highly functional. Time spent with her was too short, but wonderful all the same, and in retrospect, I'm not sorry we changed our holiday plans at the last minute.

Of course, no vacation involving TCB and HRG would be complete without getting lost. TCB did not disappoint. Once again, the gps was offered and declined.....

Guess what TCB is getting for xmas this year?

TCB also hit a milestone birthday and managed to get away with it. There's a part of me that wonders if he's a bit put out that there wasn't a huge party or a huge fuss. He'd insisted on dinner, just the four of us, and then there was the gig the next nite, and the after gig party the nite after that..... All that and I did get him the silly scope he'd been wanting. He said it was exactly how he'd wanted it. We'll roast him in five years. Maybe by then he'll look closer to fifty than forty. Bastard. (all you who know TCB know exactly what I mean)

There's more my babies, isn't there always? But for now, taking advantage of a day with no rain is necessary. Having to go back to work and soon makes getting the yard done all that more urgent. I will be back with more posts, I promise.

Because I've read a lot of news articles lately.....and my soapbox is freshly painted....

Don't say I didn't warn you.

HRG