Even Rock Stars Get The Blues

.....and head colds. (insert endless whining here)

Happy First Day of Spring babies! And to my (hopefully) new reader from down under, happy first day of Fall for you. A respite from the horrible heat. Meanwhile, those of us here on Fantasy Island are waiting, fingers crossed, for a summer like last year. Bring it on Mother Nature, we can handle the heat! After all, MN did throw several snowfalls at us this year and look how well we handled them.

I love Spring as you all know. It is a time for re-birth, new beginnings, everything looks so fresh, so new. Sitting on the balcony in the warm sunshine watching the birds build their nests was a lovely way to begin the day.

The sunshine is a welcome relief from the rain and the cold. HRG has been stuck indoors and quite frankly it sucks. Big time. There are lots of projects here, a little more is accomplished each day, but the longing to go for a very long walk has me staring wistfully out the window. I need fresh air, a chance to clear my head of thoughts and useless clutter and brace myself for whatever is around the next corner. Whatever it might be. The Fates are giving no hints of what's in store. The paths are there, waiting patiently to be chosen, to feel those tentative footsteps. I stare for a long time at them, then cast my eyes to the horizon, wondering, waiting for an answer that isn't there.

The uncertainty of it all has me feeling a little blue babies. It is in my nature to withdraw, to try and figure it all out in my head before reaching out for that shoulder. It's hard for me to reach out, to let anyone closer than arm's reach. But, you know, the upside is, as I was reminded, TCB is here, so really, do I need to be looking for another shoulder? I have two feet. Using them is probably a good idea. It would all sound like whining anyway. Measuring my stuff against that of others, well, it makes me realize my issues are really insignificant.

So what to do now? Taking all the planned time off will probably not happen. Sitting still is highly over-rated and a bored HRG gets into trouble. Every time. I've come a long way in knowing myself. It's a road travelled all too often, boredom is. There's no reason to kick up the dust again. I know better now. That's why it's so important to find something to occupy my time. I had wanted the summer off, but the need to accomplish something is strong.

Hey, wait a minute. Tanning my legs IS accomplishing something.

Isn't it?

HRG