The End Of A Decade

It hardly seems possible that ten years have come and gone. Are any of you where you thought you'd be when this decade began? Your humble HRG certainly isn't. Not even remotely close.

It's been a tough year, babies. Emotionally speaking, probably the toughest year I've ever had. Learning how to survive TCB's mistake has been so difficult. There was a time when I didn't think we were going to make it, then again, there was a time when I could look at him and not want to smash his face too. We will make it though. He, us, this marriage are all worth the second chance and the work that lies ahead of us. I know this because I can look at him now and smile instead of wanting to smash his face. The last things I'll say to him as the clock strikes midnite are I love you and I forgive you. And I will mean it.

All the other memories of this past year have been put into their boxes. Some buried, some burned, some tossed out like the trash they are, some tucked neatly away, in bright, shiny boxes. There should be no negative thoughts, no sense of loss when you open your eyes tomorrow morning babies. Put this year behind you, move forward, look inward and find the answers you've been looking for. Instead of being afraid of life, live it! As we all know all too well, it can be over in the blink of an eye. A life unlived is a life wasted. And that's a shame, isn't it?

"But HRG" you ask, "how can we live the same amazing life you do, hob nobbing with local radio personalities and people who look like they might be someone famous?" You can start like this: dance on tables with waiters you've never met, run around the house in your underwear, singing off key (it's preferable that you do this in your own house....alone...), love your friends, love yourself (I promise you won't go blind or to hell for it), forgive, accept and embrace what awaits. It's gonna be pretty cool. I promise.

Happy New Year my Babies!

With love and thanks,
HRG

So Tonite I'm Gonna Party

...like it's 1999....

As I recall babies, there were very few parties going on at the end of 1999, everyone so paranoid that the world as we knew it would cease to exist, the computers on which we'd become so attached would have meltdowns when the date rolled over. We'd open our eyes to a Terminator:Rise Of The Machines existence. Instead of fireworks, joyful yelling and screaming, hugs and kisses, the world took a deep breath at 11:59:59.

Then at 12:00:02 a.m. we exhaled. (let's add that to the "never mind that the planet is still evolving, we have to blame people breathing for global environment crisis" list shall we?) For those that ran up gianormous debt, thinking, hoping, the world would end...sure sucked to be you that first day of Y2K, didn't it?

Guess what? We're still here, computers still rule our lives, or rather our addiction to them does. The world did not melt down. The sun rose exactly the same way it has for a bajillion years. The new decade, the new millennium began with a whimper and collective sigh. We should've been excited about our future! Not paranoid and fearful, hiding behind closed curtains, waiting......

My babies, we live in the most exciting time in history! Technology advances at a dizzying pace, the world has been opened up in a way that we'd never even dreamed possible--say what you want about Bill Gates, HRG shall always be grateful for his vision. Without it, why however would you all be entertained by these whinings and general observations of life?

There are many changes ahead for all of us. Some will find themselves in places and situations they never once imagined they'd be. Some will find the happiness they thought impossible. And some will stand alone at the crossroads, wondering which direction to take, knowing the first tentative steps will be painful, no matter which path they choose. Look in your heart, don't be afraid of the honesty there...a new decade is about to begin!

HRG

So I Was Thinkin'...

that instead of sitting here playing pinball and reading too much news that pisses me off, maybe it would be a good idea to write some of the crazy thoughts that run through my head faster than fibre through TCB. Or maybe that's a bit too much information.

Strange, isn't it babies, how life has a way of taking you back to the beginning when you're not sure where to go. Five years ago The Fates decided it was time to pull the rug right out from under HRG's feet. Finding myself in the same situation again frightens me a little. Someone please remind me, just every now and again, that despite the similarities, that was a time of endings. Some pretty wonderful things came out of it then and they will now. Right? Right?

Hey, if God really did create the world and all life, where'd Satan come from?
(thanks for sharing my ADD moment)

It's December now, getting time for the year in review. Not just a year in review tho, it's a decade gone by now. How did that happen? And just what do we call this decade anyway? The Oughts, The Zeroes? Personally I think it should be called the 'Ohs. Like 'Oh look, they put a moron in charge of the red button . 'Oh they've done it again. Or something like that.

Remember how we were all going to change the world and then along the way we realized it had changed us? Oh to be that naive, that idealistic....that young...wouldn't it be cool?

Oh, who am I kidding. No way you could pay me enough to be thirteen again.

HRG