Where has the week gone? It's been a week of "blink of an eye" and time has escaped us. Tomorrow LDK must return to his soon-to-be old life to tie up loose ends and get ready for his new one. My heart is aching already--a week ago I couldn't wait to get to the airport, now going there is the last thing I want. I'm dreading it already. But that's tomorrow and today we'll spend together, wandering the Inner Harbor, enjoying the sunshine and each other.
We've had a wonderfully magik time. DTVCB was right. HRG has fallen. Hard. And yes, babies, this is *IT*. He's THE ONE. After all, Jack Smak told us so.
I can see you scratching your pretty little heads, wondering if I've lost my mind along with my heart. Let me explain. Like I have a choice--Mystery Mama would drag it out of me anyway.
We got all prettied up and went for a romantic dinner. I wore the red dress. And "the shoes". You know, in case he had any doubts. It's been long established that the red dress will reduce mere mortals to mush. "The Shoes" are just insurance. He wore a shirt AND a tie and looked.....let's just say he washes up very well. Dinner was amazing, the food great, the waitress kept giving us these "awwww aren't they cute" looks. The kind of looks we've been getting everywhere we go. I can't help it babies, HRG is glowing from the inside out.
After dinner we went downtown in search of somewhere to have another glass of wine and stare into each other's eyes. New love is like that. Or so I've been told. I like this, the beginnings, the honeymoon stage. Doesn't everyone? It's just that I've never been here before. I understand it now. We sat for a long while on a bench across from the city's oldest hotel. (yes DTVCB we were sitting near the water). We talked about a lot of things, we're good at that. Then out of nowhere, literally out of nowhere, a man appears. For all intents and purposes he looked like a street person. Here's where it gets a little, well, I want to say weird, but that's not the right word. He's carrying a huge bunch of tulips, and stops to ask me for a cigarette (which I have agreed to give up--LDK doesn't smoke and suddenly I don't want to either). I tell him that no, I don't have one. No matter, he shrugs, but doesn't pursue it further. Instead he pulls a tulip out of the bunch and hands it to me, then decides it wasn't nice enough, takes it back and gives me a perfect one. Then he looks right at LDK and with a big smile and a twinkle in his eyes, says "alright, so marry the broad already". (for the record, I find being referred to as a broad as a huge compliment--the strongest women in history were "broads"). He tipped his hat to me and with a wink he disappeared. Right before our eyes. No, he didn't just wander into the nite, he disappeared!
We talked about it when we got home (and my Goddess knows how much I love how that sounds). LDK pointed out that Jack Smak (we know his name because he introduced himself) didn't approach anyone else on the street. He looked only at us. Neither of us think that anyone else did, or even could, see him. It was in the talking that we both realized he neither looked nor smelled like a *real* street person. That he came out of nowhere and disappeared the way he did.....
It's been a week of magikal co-incidences. First having the power together to avert what we both felt was something that could've been a bad situation, meeting Grey Kitty and having her bind us, and at last meeting Jack Smak.
If someone asks me if HRG truly has sworn off all but one cute boy, there really is only one answer.
Absofuckin'lutely.
HRG
Saturday, April 22, 2006
Monday, April 17, 2006
Bet You're Wondering....
...how it's going.
Oh babies, this is amazing, and from where I sit, well, this is *it*. Yup. HRG is going to have find something other than cute boys to blog about because I've given my heart to a very cute boy. For safekeeping. I know he will. Keep it safe.
The visit is going very very well. So much so that it doesn't seem to be a visit, we seem to be an extension of each other, it's all so easy. Almost too easy, but then again, that's my tendency to over analyze everything that might be making me feel this way. I have to keep reminding myself "don't think, just feel". It's working, this new mantra. The trees seem greener, the sun brighter, the world a happier place. Or maybe it's just because I'm feeling that way. I'll have to think about it. (don't think, just feel)
I'm letting him sleep, we've been going pretty much non stop since he got here. LDK is, for the record, a VERY cute boy. In all ways. No "first time" nerves, just easy and relaxed, because we seem to know each other very very well. This morning I watched him sleep. He has this small smile on his face, his colors are wonderful and there is so much happiness in him.
I'll let you in on a little secret, but only if you promise not to tell......
I feel the same way. I even used the "c" word yesterday, twice. Without stumbling or choking. He laughed and said he knew he could take me there, and that I wouldn't die where I stood for saying the word. That word. Commitment. See? There, I've said it again.
And, he tells me, we have all the time in the world to spend getting to know each other. We have nothing but time and we're both ready to face it together.
But that also brings up the whole geography thing. He's willing, wants to, move here. We went for a long walk yesterday. Yes DTVCB, we even walked the beach, sat on some driftwood, collected cool stones and enjoyed each other--who knew walking by the water could actually be fun? I of course do realize that I will never ever hear the end of it. I watched him fall in love with this city as we held hands and strolled along. Let's face it, it's an easy thing to do. With all the newness of Spring around us we just kept walking towards our future. We can see it. It looks pretty good from where we are.
Interesting things happened. Along the way a woman appeared and started to follow us. Because we both have the gift of "spidey sense", we both felt the imminent danger, the threat. She fell into step behind us, then all of a sudden changed her mind, turned and walked away. We looked at each other and smiled knowing that we'd both felt the same thing, and realizing that together we're powerful enough to stop those who wish to do us harm. A few blocks later we happened upon a very groovy house. We saw the black kitty, basking in the sun on the roof, standing guard over his familiars. Then we saw the grey kitty, purring happily by a small pond. She spotted us and came right over. First she made a small circle around LDK, then me. Then around both of us, thrice. For reasons unknown, we felt as though we'd just been protected--she was insistent enough to do the circle. At the end of it all, all she asked was for a head scratch and a tummy rub. Then she sat, watching us, a little kitty smile on her face, then she wandered back to her warm spot by the pond. It was amazing.
Babies, I hear stirring in the other room, time to start my day, our day. I don't know what we'll do today, but whatever it is, we'll do it together.........
I wouldn't have it any other way.
HRG
Oh babies, this is amazing, and from where I sit, well, this is *it*. Yup. HRG is going to have find something other than cute boys to blog about because I've given my heart to a very cute boy. For safekeeping. I know he will. Keep it safe.
The visit is going very very well. So much so that it doesn't seem to be a visit, we seem to be an extension of each other, it's all so easy. Almost too easy, but then again, that's my tendency to over analyze everything that might be making me feel this way. I have to keep reminding myself "don't think, just feel". It's working, this new mantra. The trees seem greener, the sun brighter, the world a happier place. Or maybe it's just because I'm feeling that way. I'll have to think about it. (don't think, just feel)
I'm letting him sleep, we've been going pretty much non stop since he got here. LDK is, for the record, a VERY cute boy. In all ways. No "first time" nerves, just easy and relaxed, because we seem to know each other very very well. This morning I watched him sleep. He has this small smile on his face, his colors are wonderful and there is so much happiness in him.
I'll let you in on a little secret, but only if you promise not to tell......
I feel the same way. I even used the "c" word yesterday, twice. Without stumbling or choking. He laughed and said he knew he could take me there, and that I wouldn't die where I stood for saying the word. That word. Commitment. See? There, I've said it again.
And, he tells me, we have all the time in the world to spend getting to know each other. We have nothing but time and we're both ready to face it together.
But that also brings up the whole geography thing. He's willing, wants to, move here. We went for a long walk yesterday. Yes DTVCB, we even walked the beach, sat on some driftwood, collected cool stones and enjoyed each other--who knew walking by the water could actually be fun? I of course do realize that I will never ever hear the end of it. I watched him fall in love with this city as we held hands and strolled along. Let's face it, it's an easy thing to do. With all the newness of Spring around us we just kept walking towards our future. We can see it. It looks pretty good from where we are.
Interesting things happened. Along the way a woman appeared and started to follow us. Because we both have the gift of "spidey sense", we both felt the imminent danger, the threat. She fell into step behind us, then all of a sudden changed her mind, turned and walked away. We looked at each other and smiled knowing that we'd both felt the same thing, and realizing that together we're powerful enough to stop those who wish to do us harm. A few blocks later we happened upon a very groovy house. We saw the black kitty, basking in the sun on the roof, standing guard over his familiars. Then we saw the grey kitty, purring happily by a small pond. She spotted us and came right over. First she made a small circle around LDK, then me. Then around both of us, thrice. For reasons unknown, we felt as though we'd just been protected--she was insistent enough to do the circle. At the end of it all, all she asked was for a head scratch and a tummy rub. Then she sat, watching us, a little kitty smile on her face, then she wandered back to her warm spot by the pond. It was amazing.
Babies, I hear stirring in the other room, time to start my day, our day. I don't know what we'll do today, but whatever it is, we'll do it together.........
I wouldn't have it any other way.
HRG
Monday, April 03, 2006
Ramblings
So, what I should be doing is writing this in my head while I finish cleaning and before talking to a very cute boy on the phone. But, here I sit, wanting to write it all down before I forget it. You know, seeing that I'll be distracted by a very cute boy.
It's said that with every ending comes a new beginning. Sometimes these sayings are true. A year ago I sat here, numb, not sure where I was supposed to go, or even how I was supposed to get there. I was so afraid! Not that I would've let on to anyone, not even you, babies. I thought once the dust settled, MBF and I would settle into the rest of our lives together.
I thought wrong. Inside I always knew it would end like this. He's right, the last thing I need is someone with his baggage. We tried, this time, to make it work, but at the end of the day the only two things so very very wrong between us were insurmountable. Truth is, and we all know it, I'd let him go a long time ago. DTVCB was right, the words needed to be said. Out loud. To MBF. Somehow I have to muster up the courage to tell him about LDK. But I sure don't want to.
I've learned to love living on my own over the past year. I've grown to actually like my place instead of feeling in a constant state of flux. I'm even going to (gasp!!) buy a new couch. Yes, I know that means I have to commit to both a color AND a style, but baby steps, right? Who knows, maybe eventually I could actually commit to a car. Or something like that.
While we're on the subject of endings, I realized something last week. That nite of fabulous kisses? They were kisses good-bye. HTBP won't be playing with us anymore. This all happened after I told him about LDK. I thought he'd find it as ironically co-incidental as I do, and we'd share a laugh. This reaction certainly is unexpected. It took a long time to get over that little crush and get back to where we started, to not have even that anymore makes me a little wistful. People come into our lives for a reason though, so we can walk away knowing we helped each other feel a little better about ourselves. I'll miss him big time, he is a VERY cute and hot boy.
Eleven sleeps until LDK gets here. I am so nervous--just the thought of it makes my tummy do these strange little flip flops. We can talk for hours on the phone, what if we can't connect in person? What if I really fall for this guy? Then someone has to move, and what if....what if....what if........???
HRG
It's said that with every ending comes a new beginning. Sometimes these sayings are true. A year ago I sat here, numb, not sure where I was supposed to go, or even how I was supposed to get there. I was so afraid! Not that I would've let on to anyone, not even you, babies. I thought once the dust settled, MBF and I would settle into the rest of our lives together.
I thought wrong. Inside I always knew it would end like this. He's right, the last thing I need is someone with his baggage. We tried, this time, to make it work, but at the end of the day the only two things so very very wrong between us were insurmountable. Truth is, and we all know it, I'd let him go a long time ago. DTVCB was right, the words needed to be said. Out loud. To MBF. Somehow I have to muster up the courage to tell him about LDK. But I sure don't want to.
I've learned to love living on my own over the past year. I've grown to actually like my place instead of feeling in a constant state of flux. I'm even going to (gasp!!) buy a new couch. Yes, I know that means I have to commit to both a color AND a style, but baby steps, right? Who knows, maybe eventually I could actually commit to a car. Or something like that.
While we're on the subject of endings, I realized something last week. That nite of fabulous kisses? They were kisses good-bye. HTBP won't be playing with us anymore. This all happened after I told him about LDK. I thought he'd find it as ironically co-incidental as I do, and we'd share a laugh. This reaction certainly is unexpected. It took a long time to get over that little crush and get back to where we started, to not have even that anymore makes me a little wistful. People come into our lives for a reason though, so we can walk away knowing we helped each other feel a little better about ourselves. I'll miss him big time, he is a VERY cute and hot boy.
Eleven sleeps until LDK gets here. I am so nervous--just the thought of it makes my tummy do these strange little flip flops. We can talk for hours on the phone, what if we can't connect in person? What if I really fall for this guy? Then someone has to move, and what if....what if....what if........???
HRG
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